COVID-19 Lockdown, Day 139

 This was one of the worst weeks of the year. It began when I learned that a client I once worked with committed suicide in what was supposed to be a secure facility. But then, when a person is smart enough, which he was, no place is safe for someone who is serious about committing suicide. It was very hard for me to accept his death, especially since there were times, because of the fact that he was a murderer at the beginning of his treatment. I often felt that he never should have been allowed to  leave the hospital once a person died at his hands. 

While I was dealing with this, a client who was in the hospital for a month was released prematurely, and she is now resistant to support. The hospital did not help matters because of how they did not send a prescription to the pharmacy as they were supposed to. On top of that, while I spent all afternoon arguing with the hospital and the pharmacy because of a medication she needed, I kept my so-called co-workers in the loop about everything. Even though I work at a group home, and this client lives in an apartment building,  my co-workers have their office in his apartment building. I therefore hoped that they would have eyes on her and could talk to her when he arrived. That was too much to ask. I could have picked her up myself if it weren't for bloody COVID-19 restrictions. No one was in the office, so she just took off when she arrived home. Four employees, and no one could be in the office during working hours. If I were that member, I would think no one gave a flying fiddle. We have been chasing this client ever since. 

Now, for the icing on the cake, a client was crying all day because she had dental pain. I had so much to do that day, but I needed to put it aside for his client. When a heavy duty drug came for her, I counseled her on how to take it and when. I reminded her that she has a dental appointment the next day. Right after the appointment, she admitted to me that she took the entire bottle overnight. When I tried to counsel her on the dangers of taking so much medication in such a short period of time, she didn't seem to care. I called her an ambulance, and they took her to the hospital, but they did  not admit her. She took enough medication to kill her, but they didn't bloody admit her! They couldn't have kept her overnight for observation?! Outrageous!

I really want to work elsewhere, like public aid or as a therapist. I have been wanting to leave this job for years, but I was brought up to be responsible and to not leave a job until I found another one. I wish I had $50,000 so that I could quit and still be protected until I could find something else. I just need to last until November so that I can get my student loan forgiven. For  a workforce full of lies and hypocrisies, loan forgiveness is the least the government can do. They talk about how workplaces are equal opportunity, but go to the headquarters of my current job, and the majority of those you see walking the halls are Rosie O'Donnell and Charlie's Angels lookalikes. These are the social workers and supervisors. For the most part, diversity is only limited to the number of piercings and tattoos one has or the variety of hair color (besides red, blonde, auburn, brown, and black). 

Economists and progressives may lie, but teachers teach things that are no longer true. Growing up, teachers would tell us to go as far as possible with our education in order to gain more knowledge. This, sadly, is no longer true. Colleges and grad schools are nothing more than indoctrination centers that are merely business enterprises. All one gains from college education is crippling debt assumed by those who are so smart that they do not know how stupid they are.  

--Signing off.