COVID-19 Lockdown, Day 73
Another rough day. They had this call-in meeting at work, and we talked about the latest events with a few speakers and the CEO. The meeting was okay for a while, but then this speaker, an educated woman, said that the riots had to happen. When she said this, I ended the call. I could not bear to listen to her anymore. I have heard people trivialize the damages and losses of those whose businesses were looted and vandalized by bringing up the 99th anniversary of the Tulsa Race Massacre. I have no patience for such people.
Let me tell you about the Tulsa Race Massacre that started on June 1st, 1921. A group of armed veterans tried to protect themselves from an angry lynch mob. As a result, the lynch mob shot and killed African-Americans randomly, burning down the entire neighborhood. This lynch mob hated the fact that Blacks were doing better than them and needed the slightest excuse take away all they have earned. I have done much research on this, and I wrote a novel about it. The rioters and looters did not destroy their own community; they destroyed someone else's neighborhood--a neighborhood its residents tried very hard to build. The African-American residents were very educated and successful. They kept to themselves and took care of themselves. On the other hand, the rioters of late are destroying their own communities and the businesses some of them once frequented. Using the Tulsa Race Massacre to justify the looting and vandalism is an insult to the memory of the Tulsa residents. They had far more integrity that these barbarians.
I just received a depressing reminder that this is the last month of my 30's. I am turning 40 next month, but I really don't feel like celebrating this year. I want to just let it pass, with no presents or anything. This whole year has been traumatic, the COVID-19, the death of George Floyd, the riots, the passing of my aunt, and the death of a client. On top of that, I look at where I hoped my life would be by the time I turned 40, and I am nowhere near the goals I set for myself. I hoped to be emotionally stable, fiscally stable, and the ability to save enough money as down payment on a house or condominium. Here I am, still struggling, not knowing when I will be able to have some financial and emotional stability. I am at a job where my supervisor, who is still fresh fish, keeps assigning me things that are not in my jurisdiction and who talks to me as if I just finished grad school even though I have been in the same bleeding agency for over 12 years. I am ready to find someplace else that has equal or better pay and equal or better insurance, but COVID-19 restrictions have placed hiring on hold. I would be in despair to see myself doing the same things and struggling in the same fashion 5 years from now. Yes, I don't think I want to acknowledge my birthday anymore. I don't even want presents. Just treat the day like any other.
On the plus side, the Minneapolis prosecuters finally decided to prosecute the other 3 cops who watched Chauvin murder George Floyd! Throw the book at them!
--Signing off.
Let me tell you about the Tulsa Race Massacre that started on June 1st, 1921. A group of armed veterans tried to protect themselves from an angry lynch mob. As a result, the lynch mob shot and killed African-Americans randomly, burning down the entire neighborhood. This lynch mob hated the fact that Blacks were doing better than them and needed the slightest excuse take away all they have earned. I have done much research on this, and I wrote a novel about it. The rioters and looters did not destroy their own community; they destroyed someone else's neighborhood--a neighborhood its residents tried very hard to build. The African-American residents were very educated and successful. They kept to themselves and took care of themselves. On the other hand, the rioters of late are destroying their own communities and the businesses some of them once frequented. Using the Tulsa Race Massacre to justify the looting and vandalism is an insult to the memory of the Tulsa residents. They had far more integrity that these barbarians.
I just received a depressing reminder that this is the last month of my 30's. I am turning 40 next month, but I really don't feel like celebrating this year. I want to just let it pass, with no presents or anything. This whole year has been traumatic, the COVID-19, the death of George Floyd, the riots, the passing of my aunt, and the death of a client. On top of that, I look at where I hoped my life would be by the time I turned 40, and I am nowhere near the goals I set for myself. I hoped to be emotionally stable, fiscally stable, and the ability to save enough money as down payment on a house or condominium. Here I am, still struggling, not knowing when I will be able to have some financial and emotional stability. I am at a job where my supervisor, who is still fresh fish, keeps assigning me things that are not in my jurisdiction and who talks to me as if I just finished grad school even though I have been in the same bleeding agency for over 12 years. I am ready to find someplace else that has equal or better pay and equal or better insurance, but COVID-19 restrictions have placed hiring on hold. I would be in despair to see myself doing the same things and struggling in the same fashion 5 years from now. Yes, I don't think I want to acknowledge my birthday anymore. I don't even want presents. Just treat the day like any other.
On the plus side, the Minneapolis prosecuters finally decided to prosecute the other 3 cops who watched Chauvin murder George Floyd! Throw the book at them!
--Signing off.
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